Last week, I made the decision to cut D out completely. I blocked him from every method possible on Wednesday with no heads up. I felt used and I really wanted to pursue The Beast for things other than sex.
Yesterday was my birthday. Sadly, I spent it alone. I had originally made plans with D, but clearly that didn’t happen. I woke up with a migraine yesterday, so it all kind of worked out anyways. Also, my new (hot male) roommate started moving in yesterday.
This morning, I received an early text from The Beast telling me I should watch this movie. Now it seems silly, but that made me happy because clearly he is thinking about me(and not just about the things he wants to do to me). I was having another quiet day at home. I woke up, put on sweats and went to work on cooking for the week and doing lesson plans and such.
It was a little after noon, and I notice a car pull up in my driveway. I figured it was the new roommate with another load of stuff to move in. Then I looked again. My heart sank. It was D. I almost started crying. I didn’t even know what to do. I just wasn’t prepared for that. So, I invited him in. He came in with flowers and a birthday card.
(And yes, that’s a plastic cup. I do not own a single vase as my ex husband didn’t believe in flowers)
So we talked. He was hurt that I just cut him off, and he seems to really want to try to make things work. I told we would need to start over from the beginning and slow things down. He was okay with that.
He only stayed for about a half hour. I decided it was time to have a talk with The Beast to see where that was going. If he didn’t see anything past sex with us, then I was okay trying things with D again. But if for some reason he thought there could be more, I wanted to try that first.
I sent The Beast a crazy long text explaining the situation. He responded that he just can’t settle down right now. I’m okay with that, but can we please continue to fuck each other’s brains out until I see what happens with D? He was okay with that. So hopefully I will see him soon.
And I have plans with D Friday night. I’m not sure if I am doing the right thing, but I guess we will find out.