I promised myself to start writing more, but I’ve done a terrible job at it. This week was a little easier than I anticipated. I was able to get out of the house a couple of nights this week, and that really did seem to make all of the difference. I feel loved, useful, and wanted. I haven’t even been tempted to find someone to sleep with.
I feel like I am getting back to where I was before I met Gigs and before Ron died. This weekend was very productive for me. I made myself a budget and a plan to eliminate my debt. I cooked healthy meals for the week to get back to the weight loss that was going on before. I cleaned. I graded. And I don’t feel like I did chores, I feel happy. I spent a lot of time alone. It’s exactly what I needed.
I’ve been listening to this song a lot lately. It makes me think of Ron, he would have hated this song. It helps me to feel at peace with life right now.