I needed to get this out. I wrote it as an email to Ron. There will probably be a lot more of this soon as I try to sort through my feelings.
I miss you so much tonight. Every night, really. I feel so empty and dead inside. I wish you were coming home. I want to lay in bed with you, stroke your hair, and tell you everything will be all right. I want to hear your voice again. I want to just be in your presence. I love you so much it hurts. And it always did. But that never once stopped me from loving you. And it won’t stop me now. You were my true unicorn. The one person in this world who truly got me. You always knew exactly what I needed, what I was thinking. I don’t think I will find that ever again. I don’t want to. I just want you back. I would give anything to have you back in my life. Please come home.