Naked

Published October 8, 2015 by daisiesloveandpeace

Every morning on my way to work, the fingers on my left hand come together and I realize that there is no barrier between my ring finger and my middle finger or pinky finger.  My ring is gone. I panic for a half second before realizing that I haven’t worn a ring in a while. When will it ever stop feeling so naked?

Today was especially rough as I realized today makes exactly one year that our divorce was final.  It’s been almost two since we split up. Where has all the time gone?

I spent a little over a year getting over our divorce, and the last five months unraveling from his suicide. Hopefully one day I will be done grieving.

Hopefully soon.

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3 comments on “Naked

  • I wish you the best, that you find some emotional and mental balance. If this helps, don’t think of your ring finger as naked but unchained. It is unchained because you have an opportunity to choose how your life unfolds now. It is also okay to grieve, that is part of the healing process. I would hazard a guess that once you have some closure, that ring finger will stop bothering you. Don’t rush it, we all heal at our own pace.

    Take care! *virtual hugs*

  • I know exactly what you mean about the finger. Although our situation is far less traumatic, when once questioned by a friend why didn’t wear a wedding ring I explained it had become a barometer of my disposition towards my marriage. Yet not infrequently my thumb mindlessly finds its way to the base of my fourth finger, and somehow the lack of metal is both surprising and disappointing.

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